Well. This doesn't have much to do with step parenting. I have no place to write this.

I had a minor stroke this past week. I'm young. It had everything to do with stress. We sat at a meeting with inlaws about MIL asking steps to keep secrets, etc. My FIL got enraged, threw a physical tantrum & hit me with his hat. Intentionally & hard & dramatic. It didn't hurt. Scared the holy crap out of me. 72 hours straight of unbearable stress, as this wasn't the only thing during those 3 days. Anyways. Went to ER. That's all I want to say about that.

My best friend lives 2 hours away. She came for weekend. We are having long talks... I'm under stress. Pissed at a few situations I have been allowing, etc (like bawling like a baby when FIL does this instead of walking out with a finger wave) I basically want to ensure the fuckers pay my attorney bill so I don't lose my kids. (They're millionaires)

I say how I know I'm terrible for saying that. She replies "I'm worse" Which we proceed with the conversation of why would you say that... She says she's been having a two year long affair with a married man. I've only known her two years. The first time we did anything with my husband & friends all together was on his birthday, 2 years ago. I immediately think... It had to be someone I know, due to this. And I ask do I know him. Yes she says. I say MY BROTHER IN LAW. Yep.

So my sister in law is my rock. She took me to ER till husband could get there... She's amazing. So I've got to go give this news. I've been trying to settle down. Ya know, cause I don't want to have another stroke & all. I don't have full feeling in my bottom lip, fingers & between my toes. Yesterday carbon dioxide was very high in my blood still. And to top it off I'm losing my best friend & my niece is 13, she's the most amazing successful kid & now her world is going to be a shit storm. I can't hardly breathe