I figured out something very important recently.
With my DH in the hospital I had a thought strike me. I will never again bitch about having to get up for work, make dinner, do piles of laundry, etc. Every day spent at our home with a healthy family I will thank the Lord. I've been taking things for granted. My happiness is just pure bliss, but at any moment it could be shattered. I need to remember this for the rest of my life, remember to hold my loved ones so very close to my heart. Of course I always have held my loved ones close to my heart, but this is a different thing to me. If anyone of my family were to leave this Earth I don't know how I would cope. I love my husband so very much, I love my kids so very much, no matter what problems I face with my step parenting situation every bit of it is worth it. I've been blessed with so much love that I should honestly never forget this time. It was/is a big reminder of how fragile life really is.
My SD15 texted me last night and said "Jen I want to thank you for everything you are doing for daddy. I love you very much and you are the best step mom in the world." It made me cry. She's an amazing girl and I wouldn't trade a single member of my family.
BM is really being so very hepful. She is concerned about DH, she's helped me any way she could, she's babysat for me, etc. I had a realization about her through this time to. She is a part of my family. She always will be. I think her and I have turned a new leaf and we are actually going to be friends. I really can't think her enough for everything she's done through this. She's really been a shoulder to cry on for me. She's actually held me while I cried on her. Can you believe that?
I thank the Lord so much for my entire family. BM included.
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That's great! I'm so glad
That's great! I'm so glad things are better between you and BM, and that was so nice of SD to text you.
I really admire your outlook and you've inspired me to take that outlook too
That's great!!! I'm glad to
That's great!!! I'm glad to hear it. Sometimes we just need a scare to put it all into perspective. I wish your DH all the best.
These r the times in life
These r the times in life that I personally believe God or whatever u believe in tries to send us messages...either we get them or we don't....my sister reminds me all the time when I get overwhelmed and bitchy that she would take the difficult life she had back in a second if it meant her husband was back too....try to hold on to that,jen...even when things get ugly and overwhelming, as hard as it is...remember what truly makes u happy and hang on to it...every day when I wake up...I truly do say to myself...."Lotus, remember...don't sweat the small stuff" :)....ps....glad he's ok
A mother is not defined by the "b" or the "s" in front of her name, she is defined by how she handles the "mother" part.....
That is an awesome way to
That is an awesome way to look at things.
Jen, I am so sorry that you
Jen, I am so sorry that you have gone through this. I know that everything happens for a reason. Maybe this has given you the perspective that you needed to change your way of thinking? Makes you realize that the small things don't matter?
I truly hope that your DH is getting better. And I hope your sinuses are better too
I'm glad to hear about the
I'm glad to hear about the BM situation improving! I hope Dh continues to improve!
But, weren't you afraid of letting her keep your daughter after everything in the past? Just curious.
I was Sia, but at the moment
I was Sia, but at the moment I had no other choice. My mom lives two hours away, my brother was at work, and that's all the family I have here! I wanted to get back to the hospital asap and she was my only option. But, I left my 14 year old there to so he could keep a eye on things. She didn't do anything nasty, she was nothing but helpful.