I was going through DHs old phone looking for some recordings he said he had of MIL with SD. He only mentions them whenever something flares up between him and MIL so I was curious. I remember him telling me it was pretty bad when SD was starting school when he still lived over there but, I don't think I was prepared to hear what I heard.

Ok so some of you know BM is not in the picture but MIL is, very much, unfortunately. DH has finally cut her off a bunch from seeing SD (except the few days she's shown up at SD's school in the morning to see her off and to tell SD before she left that she has to go see the lawyer).
I've finally disengaged some and it's helped tremendously for everyone, DH makes the final choice in any or every decision about SD, I let him in on anything and everything going on since I'm a SAHM. Things have been running smoothly, for the most part anyway.

So...sd6 is really aggravating me with little things that she does and showing the way she is, because mil has raised her...it may not be her fault but, im pretty sure shes not going to change and because of that i dont think ill ever fully be happy...there's no way I can ever love her the way I love my son or niece or nephew. It's really strange because I'm usually really good with kids. Sigh maybe it's just me...maybe it's just me wanting to be her actual mom and get some of the credit I think I deserve...?

Seriously Wth. As if I didn't have enough on my plate. Sd6 asks me out of nowhere right now "why did you say grandma Betty talks a lot?" that is her grandma from her BM, she moved to California because she had to get away from her own daughter. The last time she saw sd was when sd was 6-7 months old. Now she just calls. She's psycho by the way and a compulsive liar, which is where her daughter gets it from.