4 years on and still wishing for a baby... So is far more supportive than my previous blogs. Just having a moment tonight. We call to BMs house cause so has stuff for ss. So does all the right things, calls ss in advance and honks horn so we don't even have to see bm apart from her ghost in her dressing gown for a split second. Bm youngest child (not by so) is mad about my so , it's so cute. He comes running out. Sits on my so Lao, ss in the back and we all have a real laugh about his silliness he's only 5, a real character. I just got my period today. Feeling really low.