why I don't take an active role in his childrens lives, why our marriage is falling apart, why I am angry and resentful all the time, why I then get even more upset that I am angry and resentful all the time...
Today all the kids are home. 3 kids play instruments, and my SS goes over the my BD and blows directly in her ear...although I am disengaged, I immediately told him never to do it again and to go to his room to play his instrument. I will NOT tolerate this crap towards my daughter. She's the youngest and yes she's annoying but you are not going to do that crap.
Getting ready for dinner, asked all the kids to clear their stuff off the table from homework...everyone did except SS, after 3 times of being asked, I dropped the box of pencils on the floor in the living room. Now you can pick them all up instead of just putting a box away.
My DH is clearly pissed at me but doesn't say anything except to give the excuse that SS was putting his instrument away so I said well maybe he should have done it the first time I asked when he wasn't putting his instrument away...
No apology from SS for his behavior towards my daughter or for ignoring my request to pick his crap up.
And top it off we are going away this weekend, so my BD's helped clean the house and pack their stuff when they got home. Does he have his boys do the same? Nope, of course not.
I want to go back to when life was easy, I can't even remember it anymore it was so long ago. I don't know what to do. Somehow everything from tonight will be my fault.
I don't know how to make this better.