I was just sitting here reading blogs and it occurred to me "I am broken and my SD and MIL are the ones who did it. The saddest thing is I don't know if I can ever be fixed! I don't go anywhere, I rarely talk to anyone other than SO, I have started having hygiene issues, meaning I don't want to bathe, fix hair or wear make-up. Also, I keep my house clean and neat, but now I am letting that slide. I don't call my son, unless it is for something special. I don't want to be any kind of intimate with my SO. It's like I am on auto pilot to just EXIST.

It is now three days until SD goes to BM for Thanksgiving for 9 BLISSFUL DAYS, so that is 72 hours, minus 8 hours of school x 3 days-24hours and 9 hours of sleep x three nights -27 hours. 72-24-27= 21 hours I have to see, smell and hear her. Can I make it? I hope so!

I now have definitive proof my SD11 is the second(only to her mother) grossest,most nauseating, disgusting person on the planet,she still wets the bed as we know from my other blogs. So, last night she wets the bed and she is on her period, well of course there was bloody piss everywhere and she shoved all the linens in the washer colors and whites (with blood all over them) together and did not use bleach, so now pads are stained and I rewashed them myself w/bleach twice. Then on top of all that she did not take a shower before she left for school. :sick: I am so sickened by this.

I read somewhere, the divorce rate among second marriages/relationships where the man has daughter(s) and new wife/woman becomes a step-mother is somewhere around 80%, I told this to my SO and he said "what is it for second marriages/relationships where man has daughter(s) and the new wife/woman becomes a step-mother and has no children of her own". He seems to think it is higher; basically, because I have had no children, that is the problem we are having.