Turns out not only are the children not his but when he went through kimo treatment it made him sterile! So here I am with an honorable man that wants to be there for the children he raised as his own and I'm being a part time mother to two children that aren't even his! I can't even have hopes for children of my own....it makes me sad I know he can't controll it but it hurts. And also he keeps saying he loves them the same but if he has no actual tie to them and almost everytime they come over he says not in the mood for the kids I miss them but I don't want them all wkend!

So after Easter, when she threw her hands up at me and stared me down I'd have enough. Then the following wkend which was our turn with her children she has the nerve to ask an hour before we pick them up can you get them an hour early. FDH responds with no but you can drop them off befor I'm suppose to get them. Well FDH was in the shower when BM pulled up. SD4 was crying as usual to not come she wants to be at her real house blah blah blah....BM turns around gives me a dirty look won't give the youngest to me and tells SD4 go find daddy. Really WTF is that about? So I sent BM a txt.

I so I have been through a lot growing up. Dad left me when I was no more then 10 and told me he has a new little girl on the way didn't need me any more, molested by a family member while growing up which was blamed on me for not saying anything and ruining the family, told I was not allowed to be fat and ugly weighing under 90 pounds, beat by my Stepfather and ect. It is now hard for me to gain trust back right away for obvious reasons. FDH lied about something small but in my eyes if you can lie about something small you can lie about something big.

Ok so I know I'm not his mom but I helped raise the kid. When my step sister had the kid she was 16 and would go out all night. Being that my room was next to his I helped raise him for the mast majority of his early life. Let me add I was in middle school. So in a sense I am very protective and want him to always do the right thing. He has posted pictures of him smoking pot doing ex and many more on Facebook. Was mad at me for tellin him to watch his language and stop posting hat stuff it's disrespectful to he family. He has all the aunts and uncles and family friends on his friends list.