Just having a wee vent. Oh okay a HUGE vent then. Since disengaging earlier this year I've done pretty well mostly, but last night DH told me that his daughter had telephoned to say she'd had an abnormal smear test. So guess who's racing over to visit her and her mum (his ex) tonight to discuss and console because she's so upset about it! He couldn't visit her last night because she was going out (hmmm shows just how upset she was huh?). I know I sound incredibly unsympathetic BUT five days before our wedding four years ago (which she wasn't even going to attend up until two weeks prior, then we spent heaps of $$$$ outfitting her and her boyfriend, then she sulked through all the wedding photos she was in and we couldn't use them) - deep breath - where was I? Oh yes, five days before our wedding she telephoned to say she had cancer of the uterus. We were so shocked and upset, but it turned out to be a huge lie and all that had happened was that she had had an abnormal smear (which was subsequently resolved, no drama). So yesterday's call about an abnormal smear test just made me think "ho hum here we go again". But it's stirred up all the angst and I'm feeling ropeable (in between wanting to cry my heart out). This is so not how I imagined life with my DH would be. And had I known........???

Time to review the replies from my first blog entry I think. Thanks heaps for listening, ladies. It really helps.