So I worked from home yesterday because DS was sick...There's some virus running around his day care that he caught...

Trying to work with a 2 year old around is like herding cats...seriously...So by the time DH came home from work at 4:45, he was wondering if I cooked...

Umm...No...So he took us out to dinner...great...

When we got home, I logged back into work so I could finish up...DH literally stepped out of his clothes and got in the bed and turned on sports center...

DS was climbing on my head...trying to get me to color with him, etc...Just being the 2 year old that he is...Do you think DH even noticed me working?? NO...Didn't even notice me saying, "DS...Let mommy work a couple of minutes..." Nothing...I had to get loud and crazy with him for him to get it...

So he took DS in the bonus room so I could finish working...DS was tired more than anything and was asleep within 30 minutes...

This morning, same thing...DH goes about his day and I keep DS...I clean the house...do laundry...you know...take care of the family...DH said he had work to do himself...fine...So I walk by the bonus room and I hear cheering...He's playing his PS2...I said nothing...But I made a mental note as to how long he played...Finally, I told him that I needed him to take DS outside and play with him or something...He gives me the excuse that he has 32 hours of online training to do...Really? Then why didn't you do that instead of playing PS, I asked...He has no coherent, intelligent answer...Something like 32 hours to do versus 2 hours wasted is a drop in the bucket... :? Okay...whatever...

So I'm irritated as hell because I'm feeling like I've got to light a match under this dork to spend time with his child...Why do I have to tell you to do it...?

And to think...MIL sent me a text message asking me if I was planning SD a birthday party...Really? Why me? Seriously...It wears me out just to get him to parent DS, I'm not signed up for him to do it for SD...If it's not important for him, it sure as hell isn't important for me...

It takes sooooo much energy for me to deal with DH...I swear...I've worked sooooo freaking hard to help him get to the place where he is...Pointing out what he needs to do...should be doing...as a parent FIRST to SD and now to DS...I've endured him yelling at me, disrespecting me, and over time he's grown and gotten a lot...But DAMN don't I get a break? When does initiative kick in? And why do people assume that it's my responsibility to DO EVERYTHING? It takes so much work for me to take care of myself and my child and then throw in DH? It's a lot...and then I have people looking at me and saying snide comments about what I'M not doing for SD??

2012 hold a lot of "fuck you"s for people...It's coming...and it's coming A LOT...