This evening I am going to think about what I would wish for in the future. What I would like my life to be on June 1, 2006. That's the first day that we don't have any obligatory payment for support. So, I am going to try and calmly think how our life would change without that obligation and noose around our neck.

I get tired of always looking over my shoulder wondering if biomom is going to flip about something and every day I pick up the mail, will there be a certified delivery of court paperwork? Does anyone else live this way? I miss my old friends, old house, old life, things I used to be able to do at the drop of a hat. I can't do them anymore.
My whole life changed when we moved here. Not necessarily in a bad way--just much differently. I am lonelier, miss people a lot. I have a much nicer, bigger house with more property but no friends here.
I can't go backwards and wish that things were the same and we didn't have the problems from the kids because you can't undo the past. But I will say, yes, it would have been nice to have decent relationships from them. I know that both my husband and I tried are hardest but sometimes you just can't work with people--and in our case, every time we seemed to take a step towards making progress biomom would sabotage our efforts.
But thinking this evening, even if I had to use up one wish tonight, I would hope that my SS would at least call my husband for Father's Day on Sunday. It has to be be something that he is doing for his Dad, himself. Even if he does call, it doesn't make me any less angry or hurt with him, about not calling me for Mothers Day.
But I think he should call his Dad. And I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't. B/C when he left, my husband told him basically an allegory-a story with a moral-that he could apply to his situation with his girlfriend-but of course-he was telling my husband-"Dad-it's not like that!" How many of you have heard that comment from your son or daughter? It was a story that my husband's brother told my husband the day before his wedding to his ex-wife. And my husband has told me, his response was exactly like my stepson's. And he wishes now, he'd listened to his brother. As the old story goes, hindsight is always 20/20. ( The moral of this story was that my husband lost his head chasing tail.) That was from his first marriage. By the way, my husband and I have been together from 1997-present time. We married in April 1999 and plan on staying that way! Regards, Sweetie