times like this I know why I love my sd!
she is just too cute 
when she is over here for more that EOWE and we get a routine going on, I am more comfortable that she's around. I am really going to miss her if me and H get a divorce 
I really have had it easy compared to alot of Smoms on here. Bm is crazy, but so far in my step experience sd7 has just been a doll. I've known her since she was 3 and half.
today we went to the hair salon for sd to get a trim and for me to get a hair cut. the lady who cut my hair when she was washing it, the first thing she asked me was "how old are you?" I said "almost 22" then she was like "is that your kid over there?" i kinda laughed and said "no she's my step daughter" but then after I said it, I was kinda thinking that the hair dresser sounded kinda rude... But anyway I would see how people would think 'bad' of me if they just saw all 3 of us together without knowing anything, as I look really young (I look like Im 16-18) and sd7 looks her age, so I would of had to of been 14 if she was mine! lol. H is almost 5 years older than me so yeah! But ill be almost 32 when she's 18, so still young!
I have a counseling session coming up at the end of next week. I really hope it will do me some good and shed some light on my clouded heart. Its like I dont know what to say to H anymore. Part of me is still doubtful and that MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE it could work (partly because he is so against the divorce, and its really hard to stare him in the face and tell him how I really feel as he keeps trying to tell me that its all stress and that after counseling everything will be better between us) and at times, I am SOOO sure that I want a divorce then after having to see him again and him talking to me it confuses me all over again. ack well i guess we'll see. right now i am trying to just enjoy sd's visit and try not to think too much about all this.
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Of course we don't always
Of course we don't always know the whole story. But it sounds like you still have feelings for your family. If that is the case, give counseling an honest try.......meaning you pull divorce off the table completely for the duration of counseling. If it isn't an option you will then find a way to make things work.
I was buying time in my marriage- honestly I was trying to get my oldest dd out of high school so I didn't have to transfer her out of her school/ and town. I was lining up my life to walk after she graduated when DH requested counseling- since I still had two years for my plan to "come together" I didn't think I could say no. Many things happened in a short time- three deaths in my family in an 18 month period drove me back to church to find solace. The priest seemed to be talking to ME in my dealings in life. IT was truly amazing.
I pulled divorce off the table- I'm glad I did, dh and I are now honestly working together to have a life and marriage.
GOod luck, it's so easy to walk away it's harder to stay and piece something back together.
Of course we don't always
Of course we don't always know the whole story. But it sounds like you still have feelings for your family. If that is the case, give counseling an honest try.......meaning you pull divorce off the table completely for the duration of counseling. If it isn't an option you will then find a way to make things work.
I was buying time in my marriage- honestly I was trying to get my oldest dd out of high school so I didn't have to transfer her out of her school/ and town. I was lining up my life to walk after she graduated when DH requested counseling- since I still had two years for my plan to "come together" I didn't think I could say no. Many things happened in a short time- three deaths in my family in an 18 month period drove me back to church to find solace. The priest seemed to be talking to ME in my dealings in life. IT was truly amazing.
I pulled divorce off the table- I'm glad I did, dh and I are now honestly working together to have a life and marriage.
GOod luck, it's so easy to walk away it's harder to stay and piece something back together.