It just sucks...
Everything with DH started perfectly....I finally had the courage to end up whatever I had with my ex and right after that life just felt...perfect, I was able to do whatever I wanted of it, and I was going to....I met DH in the perfect time....when I moved in to his house...everything was so weird..things started slowing down and one day after two months living here, (it's going to sound retarted) I had a weird dream about DH cheating on me and a huge urge to check his e-mails...I did....He just could not cut all the threads he had gotten himself tangled in....e-mails to "friends" and e-mails from "friends", BM calling constantly, ex girlfriend calling, an account on a weird website.......what else?! I did not want to see more.
I talked to him but realized it took more than one time talk to get the truth.......I love him so why not give it a shot, why not get things straighten up, we all make mistakes and in a way, I understand why he was doing this...not my fault, not that something was missing....just pure stupidity......
I thought this really was done and over with.... recently he started talking to an old friend, a woman, and it's nothing but friendly stuff: "good to see you are doing well sort of stuff" but if you look at the dates, they are writting to each other every day....and it all comes back again, I hate feeling insecurity but I do, and Idon't know if I should go ahead and warn him...things could get out of controll from one or the other...or just wait and see.
I feel bad because, here I am, taking great care of my skids, making everything work around the house, around our lives, and yes, I see nothing but love from him,aknowledgment, respect and he's always making sure I have what I need...but I hate to see that everyday he sits on this computer to write a nice message to that woman...It's just not right........