So the wedding is in 4 months, we've been in our brand new home for over a month now....I should be so happy and not depressed.

Right now my fiances damn dog is destroying the "not yet landscaped backyard" aka MUDPIT by digging in the dirt, and shedding all over the house. I have to bathe her everynight when she comes in because she's covered in mud. And now she has developed huge anxiety problems, like you cannot leave the room and she does not want to go outside by herself to potty. Not to mention, this house has almost white carpet. I'm losing my FREAKING MIND!!! This is a dog by the way....ha. There is a huge island counter in the kitchen that if you walk to the fridge, she can't see you, so she has to walk over and watch you, creeping around trying to herd me. I am going to drop kick her to the moon I swear. The owner put it in the lease to have up to 60 days to do the backyard. IT cannot come fast enough. Then the blinds were put in a few weeks ago, and the owner decided not to have them trimmed? so on the window ledge about 6 inches of blinds are just stacked up at the bottom. Very attractive.

Oh goody, so futureSS12 plays on THREE sports teams. Friday nights the basketball shindig is like 6pm to 10pm ...so then they don't get home until after 11pm at night, and then we have his baseball game at 830am, so he has to be there at probably 730 ....so its a 1.5 hour drive...so they need to leave at 6am and of course I am expected to come. He used to only play on one team/one sport at a time, now this is just out of control. It's really fun when you have practice and a game, or a tournament and there is a 4 hour break in between so we just sit around and twiddle our thumbs because its not worth the 15$ of gas to go back and forth then just have to turn back around anyways. Which leads into the fact that in my three years with my fiance, his xwife has not ever dropped or pickedup ss12 from his dad's house .....my fiance does ALL of the driving. Although when the Hobbit came out, the first one ...she called us 13 times while in the threatre then showed up at his house looking for them (this was my fiances weekend with his son) She went pull panic that she couldnt reach him....so there....she did drive...once. Crazy lady.

I want my weekends back, and I hate my new life in this house. I was living at home and this is like an entire new world. I am getting mad when the bathroom upstairs is called "his sons bathroom." That sounds so stupid but I don't know why I get mad at that....and then the nosy future motherinlaw is driving me insane and trying to take over all this wedding planning......I am raising the white flag. Then my fiance gets pissed because apparently she took over his last wedding with his xwife and commandeered the entire thing, so much so that he didnt have a say in his own friends being invited. God I am so annoyed that he had a kid with her then they separated during the pregnancy. What a WASTE.

Since we moved in together, I see even less of my fiance now that's to his ss12 joining all these teams. He was just playing basketball but now the baseball started then joined a second basketball team. So now I see my fiance 4 days pretty much of month to spend any quality time together. I work retail and I'm in school and he works 12 hour graves.

How am I supposed to deal with this? My parents are no help, my mom tells me to bring a book. God damnit I only have saturdays off, excuse me for not wanting to spend them at a baseball park with a bunch of kids, and not to mention all the screaming toddlers. I just keep getting told that I am selfish, and maybe I am.

Am I out of line for hating that he's on 3 sports teams?? It ruins the entire day , weekends are trashed and I never see my fiance on stepson weekends???? Oh but I have to cook and clean for them. He can't even manage to bring his plate to the dishwasher, I have to clean it. I've told my fiance so many times I am not his sons maid. Then at night, the TV is taken up with sports sports sports and more sports.

I am so stressed out, I wish we never moved here. Now I have an hour commute and none of my friends have even bothered to come see the new place. My parents have come here to visit once for about 2 hours. I am so lonely and unhappy.

2 weekends ago (the last SS12 weekend) my fiance got into a HUGE fight with me in front of his son. So it went like this: I still had my parrots at my parents house and I needed help to move them. Two of the cages needed to be taken apart to fit out the door. We made this plan already and then of course SS12 gets asked by a coach to play on some other team because the kids were sick or something, so then there was drama because we had to move birds instead of letting ss12 play on a FOURTH team. So ....we get the birds, and I have my two rabbits in the room which is tiled and how to get to the garage. It's a perfect bird room. So I decide to shop vac really quick so the room is ready to put the cages together in. Well in this short span of probably 5min, my fiance had the front door open and his son12 had the dog on a leash sitting in the living room. The front door is wide open because I had two huge boxes of bird toys to come in and other stuff from moving them .....you can see where this is going right....?? So for whatever unknown reason to mankind, ss12 takes the dog off the leash knowing his dad is making trips to the car and back. BTW, this floor plan is very open, you can see everything so it wasn't a surprise. And ....I turn on the shopvac ......... the dog takes off, ZOOM, bye!! SS12 is in a full blown panic, screaming and running ....at midnight of course. My fiance calms him and they go into the car to find the dog. Honestly, I was like yaaaay dont come back!!!! So my fiance is PISSED at me because of my lack of care in the situation, and plus I am a total jerk and continue cleaning. I didn't think she went far, and she has a problem with jackrabbits so I wasn't concerned. Well about an hour later they get the dog back, as expected ....herding rabbits. But my fiance totally lays into me about my behavior and its all right in front of ss12, then my fiance just leaves and takes off to get gas and doesnt tell me. He did come back, and speak to me in private, and we both apologized, but all three of us made mistakes. I completely forgot about the dog having vaccuum issues......I didn't live with her before really to have that thought it my head. UGHGHHH!!!!!! SS12....dingbat ....really you see your dad coming in and out of the door with boxes in hand and you decide to let the dog off the leash??? So I am SURE that ss12 was so happy to tell his mom all about that and how daddy and daddys fiance got in a huge argument about the dog and how daddy really blew a gasket!!!

Seriously,kill me now.

Who wants a free dog? I'll even throw in a free twelve year old boy so they can keep each other company while you go to work!

Thanks for reading...I typed a lot, probably lots of errors ...should have made two posts to complain about the dog and the kid.