Hi all. Been awhile since I posted and things between my husband and I seem better. We haven’t been arguing as much and have been communicating better. We didn’t have skid over the holidays because my husband my son and I all caught noro virus (the flu). Then after we had it skid got it and stayed at his moms so we haven’t seen him for about a total of three weeks almost. It’s been nice. I can honestly say things are so much better without him. Anyways today it’s back to the grind and we have skid Thursday- Monday. My husband took awhile at pickup because skid wouldn’t come to him. I always cross my fingers that he just won’t. Lol I know that’s wrong but I just like my life better when he isn’t around. Disappointed to see my husband walk in with skid. As soon as I see him my mood just tanks. I hate this. I didn’t know having stepkids would be so fucking hard. This is not the life I wanted. When my husband and I first started dating we only had skid two days a week for two hours at a time so it wasn’t a big deal to me. I regret marrying my husband. Nothing is worse than stepkids. If Youre not sure if you should get married to somebody with a stepkids I warm you don’t do it. I hate myself for thinking this would work. It never will with stepkids. As a stepmom I totally realize why the step moms are evil is those Disney movies lol. It sucks!!!! I can’t love somebody else’s child lol. I need some uplifting comments. How do you cope with being a step parent? Is it possible or am I just selfish? Help!!!