This is skid weekend.... already anxious and tied in a knot
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I hate the mental energy this always takes. Disengaging is a conscience effort, it's exhausting. I feel like a cat on a hot tin roof the minutes before they walk in the door. Always left out of whatever's going on. It's so uncomfortable, I really just hate these weekends. There is just nothing normal about any of this.
Sorry Yep, that exactly. I
Sorry
Yep, that exactly. I find myself taking something before bedtime so that I can sleep. Now that the nice weather is coming, it makes it even worse somehow. Very depressing all around.
Me too. I realised I argue
Me too. I realised I argue with my partner on the day they will be arriving. Even though they are staying out tonight at their uncles, we still have them for a bit and they will back tomorrow. The dread is awful and I do try and battle it. I also think for me the build up is worse than them actually being here...they can be lovely kids some weekends so I build it up for nothing.
Yep, I do that, too. It's
Yep, I do that, too. It's pretty hard to balance the overload of emotions with blank stare disengagement. I agree that the anticipation is about the worst thing. I bit my tongue this morning as SO was leaving for work, no mention of what time he gets skido tonight... I'll find out eventually. Those conversations always leave me feeling worse.
Sunday's I just stare at the clock, counting the hours till the skid leaves.
This is no way to live -
I do not miss that feeling AT
I do not miss that feeling AT ALL.
Although, I will admit that it wasn't SD who put me in knots, it was DH having to deal with BM for the pick ups and drop offs. She was always causing trouble and for a long time, he had to take someone with him as a witness.
I was so glad when SD reached an age that she didn't have to be escorted to and from the car and DH didn't have to deal with BM.
And yes, vodka did help!
OY! Well, I have never seen,
OY! Well, I have never seen, spoken to, met the BM - I can't even imagine that.... the skank.
Okay - I'll take out the vodka... can't hurt~
Yea I know this feeling all
Yea I know this feeling all too well. It's not a skid weekend right now so I am over the moon, it is our 10 year anniversary. Not married just together so I am sure BM will give it her all to somehow sabotage our weekend. But SO is just so fedup with her antics and multi personality disorder he will no longer engage with her nonsense.
Next Friday at this time my stomach will be in knots and I will be a hot mess!
Cannnnoooottttt imagine
Cannnnoooottttt imagine dealing with the bowel movement... If she is ever stupid enough to contact me, that will be a day that she'll not soon forget... and a day likely filled with things like vodka.
High anxiety the next couple of days... indeed.
Well, I'm getting a break.
Well, I'm getting a break. Skiddo had some whateverthefuck meeting last night - by the time he arrived here it was 10:00 pm. Off to bed... Then SO tells me that when he arrives at the swap point, the BM approaches the car and said, "I know you don't like it when you don't know in advance, but he just found out at the whateverthefuck meeting that he has to be back early on Sunday". He'll be gone before I wake up tomorrow. Lottery ticket!