bd5 and i have been at my parent's house since the 28th of april. major culture shock for the both of us! of course there are pro's and cons to every situation:

pro: no drama at my parents house. they are pretty set in their routines and schedules and i really appreciate them fitting us into that. we are totally welcome here.

con: my mother has never been involved with bd5---could have something to do with the fact that my 2 siblings have overused the grandma-card and bd5 has been an actual grandchild. i never dumped my child off on my mother. babysitting has always been rare and far between. i just always beleived that the parents raise and deal with their offspring...so.....not much of a break at all and the first few nights i held in my tears until bd5 was fast asleep because god forbid i can mourn what i have been going through.

now, on to the 'homecoming'....sd has yet again gotten herself lost in the drug pit. bm had her a few days ago and let her go to a friends house, in which sd, her 2 friends, all took a bunch of muscle relaxers and smoked bud and spice. they took her to the ER again and her P.O. decided NOT to violate her probation...but to try and fast track her to inpatient rehab. there is a meeting this upcoming thursday to 'discuss' shit, not sure what, but if all goes well she will be placed at this institution for 6mo-yr, it includes virtual school, detox, therapies, ect. hope she gets in.

if she does, bd5 and i will be moving back home. bf has his first therapy appointment for monday morning, and will be signing up for parenting classes as well. CPS never got involved, thankfully. i am hoping that with him in therapy and us taking parenting classes, we can make this work. i am also hoping that this rehab thing happens and works and helps sd13 become the type of person she should be, versus the person she is right now.