Got Skids after school yesterday. 17 and 14 had Soccer games didnt see them. Then they stayed a grammas, 13 went to friends for overnite, didnt see her til today. She started her usual crap of lies manipulation and sneaking. Then the Nutburger text start and I keep trying to convince SO to just let her stay at her moms if she wants. Let them all. I am just so tired, literally physically exhausted. Every day is so damn hard.

"Dear God, turn me into a bird so I can fly far far away" *Jenny as a child on Forest Gump*