I have to laugh or I'd been completely screaming and losing my mind. I have been writing about the ongoing tale of the xanga chatterbox site with my SD. Only to find out that of course, we are back with the narcissistic behavior, everything is of course, stepmom's fault, I am "flaunting her father" at her, excuse me. Hello. Then my SD best friend states I am jealous of SD when I am asking if her dog's are okay, and asking nonthreatening questions to her, making nonthreatening comments. (to SD). It's just too crazy. I'd like to know how you can flaunt your husband of 7 years (we have been together for nine) and he is at least 20 pounds heavier than when we married, and much more set in his ways. It's such a joke. Especially since my family and everyone else I knew early on acknowledge that I would have a problem with my SD b/c she was so jealous of my relationship with her Dad and even biomom was very aware of it and played off it. With all this going on (I'd check the xanga site when I came back from the doctor's appt), I had a dr's followup for my High Blood Pressure, triglycerides, cholesterol, as the doctor said that I was in a crisis marker for either a stroke or heart attack. I have had to be on a low cholesterol/low fat diet for over a month now plus take prescriptions for the blood pressure, arrthymias,
statins for cholesterol, and medications to lower the lipids. Just found out today I have to stay on this regimen at least another three months. Then I got home and mopped the kitchen floor b/c my 3 dogs had messed up the kitchen floor this week so I cleaned all of it and washed all the scatter rugs. I have the 14 week old greyhound puppy, 5 year old greyhound, and 15 year old miniature poodle. The 15 year old poodle is terriblly grouchy and has bitten me several times this week, but today was the clencher, and today he bit me twice on the hand. So, when I could finally get a hold of him, I crated him. I don't want to hurt him, I am just fed up with being bit by this old grouch. And if I say anything to my husband about my SD he will just tell me he doesn't want me having anything to do with my SD. He will not have anything to do with her anymore. Oh, I meant to tell you, that my SD's friend, tried to trow back in my face, why didn't I acknowledged her birthday? I wrote that I hadn't even received a Christmas card, birthday card, or even a thank you note for the Christmas gift. By the way, her Mom forgot her birthday. But hey, that's okay. So, I am probably a bit more disgusted with her than earlier in the day. I was outside with the dogs earlier in the afternoon--thinking of Beth--remembering how --how much she missed the little things--well one thing I miss was baking cupcakes--I used to bake them all the time and was reputed for baking the best ones in all of Pasadena. Kids came over and had cupcakes and took the tops off and ate the lids last.
I always had the kids parties at my house. I had holiday parties for them as well. I must have been completely cracked because here I am today, completely alone. And then the topper is that I was accused of not even sending the letter about my dog dying. And that isn't true. But her Mom never gave her the letter. So, once again I look like a fool and she looks like an absolute drama queen with everyone coming to her rescue. Imagine that, her sitting there, batting her eyes. Of course, don't forget, I'm here flaunting my husband. That's enough for me today. I think maybe I had overkill. The stuff you guys have going on with younger stepkids and the interaction with the biomoms is mild compared with the teen stuff. They're so nasty and their parents don't have a clue what they're doing. When I think how my SD used to be, it just breaks my heart, but I think that I must have been pretty naive or stupid, because I didn't know her, and it was a hell of an act she had going on. Sometimes you want something to work so badly, that you'll believe anything. I'm older now and realize that things are different. Life is disillusioning sometimes. I hope that the rest of you have a happy and peaceful weekend.