So, as you know, OH admitted that the cocaine wrap I found was his......and since then things have been horrific....as you can imagine...

I have accepted that he has had this problem, and I have accepted that he eventually admitted it too....he had yet to sort counselling out, but now I know why...its because if he attends the counselling, his liking for a smoke will be tackled too....

Now, his weed habit has increased, massively.....he seems to go through phases with his smoke where he is either stone a lot or doesn't touch it for months on end....so Ive told him he needs to seek help, and now.....

Im glad to say he has, he is in touch with a clinic over the phone at the moment (appointment times are awkward and during school hours rather than anything outside standard working hours!)....the fact he can talk to someone about the difficulty he is having going without the cocaine, is a help, especially since it is felt that he is smoking more weed to replace the need for cocaine.....but the smoke is now interfering with his sleeping patterns and he is constantly shattered and stressed out...combined with cold turkey......

Me.....well, Im concentrating on me, my unborn baby and my BD......they need me and hell I need them.....OH, ive not left adrift, but im supporting from a distance......he needs to prove that Im enough, and that he is sorry....

Just thought id give you an update...things being tackled with me and OH and to me, thats more important than his lay about SSs..