That's what ask I myself when I think back to the woman who dealt with everything that happened in the last twelve years The twelve years since I met my husband, his children and his psycho xwife. It actually horrifies me that I spent so many years embroiled in their unhealthy relationships. I look back now at who I was then and don't even recognize myself! It's a weird feeling to have. It's almost like I stepped out of reality for a good chunk of my life and entered into the twilight zone.