Just wanted to quickly rant and update I had a counseling appointment and feel so much better. I'm feeling like maybe the intense feelings I'm having are related to my pregnancy and the stress of just moving into a new home we remodeled  , no AC , not fully finished  .. just major stress because there are good days and the past few have been that. Yes my SO cheated in a vicious way .. but my choice was to fight for my family , set higher standards for him and me ,  and give our family a shot.