Good afternoon to you all. I cannot tell you what a relief it is to hear all your stories. I really did think I was the only one and that failure as a parent because I don't won't to be one. I knew from a young age I never wanted kids, they make too much noise and smell. But, unfortunately, the man of my dreams, the really real Mr Right for me had 4 and had been a single parent for about 6 years- alchy mother abandoned them when the youngest was 2.