I know I will get through this. I have made that decision. It is not about my step children or my husband. It is about me and my desire for life, for happiness. I cannot do more than give myself to the people I love, all of them. When I respect my efforts toward that, I am free to be myself. There is going to come a time, soon, I pray, that I will have the serenity to simply say to these people what I see. I do it every day with clients, with such difficult and complex issues. There is no logical reason I cannot do it more effectively with the people in my personal life. I am still too frightened to do that, but I see the problem and am working through it.
I am listening to the soundtrack of Avatar.