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Custody modification begins and I'm scared

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Submitted by mylife7 on Thu, 05/17/2012 - 12:42am

We have submitted the final ok for modificaton and I'm scared. I'm told I have "too high" standards exspecting honesty from people around me, which leaves me pretty much friendless. I feel alone. BM is ruthless and takes huge offence of anything I have to say much less her bullshit being challenged. I sit here at the mercy of the legal process, which has time again failed not only me but the four (bd 17,14. bs 12 and ss8)children in our home. It seems being a peice of shit liar holds more weight than being a good person. I'm sorry for my pity party. Like I said, I feel alone and scared.

So I'm a "sarcastic bitch" eh? (bad words...sorry in advance)

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Submitted by mylife7 on Fri, 05/04/2012 - 3:27am

I dared to ask BM for ss8s game shorts back prior to his game. Oh my hell! You would have thought I asked her to kiss my bare ass. 14 texts. 14 bullshit, delusional, rambling and never coming to a point texts! I guess five pairs of shorts, four pairs of soccer socks, two pairs of shin guards, three pairs of bball shoes, tball gear, wrestling gear and five sling bags to transfer it, all of which has vanished to her house need not be mentioned. Nevermind the fees involved per sport. Nevermind she "doesn't feel it to be" her obligation to bring him to games on "her time".

Should be a simple exchange right? Not if she has anything to say about it!

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Submitted by mylife7 on Mon, 04/09/2012 - 3:15am

It should be simple right? Routine by now? Nope. I kmow I'm repeating myself, but hey, so seems the situation. Last Tuesday she refused to drop off ss8 and his med bag (like she's supposed to) before school. Why? Because I was here. DH schedule has changed so he's gone by 6:45am. What does it matter? Drop off the kid and hand over the bag, no diolage required! No, no no, "she's there and I'm not going to talk to her." Click. No med bag, no kid. This bag also had his glasses in it which if he doesn't use, he gets horrible headaches.

Stress induced insomnia makes for a lonely blog

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Submitted by mylife7 on Tue, 04/03/2012 - 5:26am

I'm surrounded by children! What an awesome thing right? Unfortuately, that leaves little room to vent openly when I'm trying to put on the "everythings okay" face during the day. I don't want the kids to feel the stress any more than they have to, but that makes for a very busy brain for me. Alas, I can't sleep again. My older kids (17,14&12) are more and more aware of the drama. They know my face and they hear her yell at me outside. I try and make sure they are all upstairs, but sound carries and they aren't stupid. The "norm" has become to protect SS8. How pathetic is that?

I thought it would get better!

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Submitted by mylife7 on Sun, 03/25/2012 - 3:00am

I thought this would get better. I am more fortunate than most, I'll be the first to admit that. My ss8 loves me. Our family is well blended, but he comes home more and more like his BM is speaking through his mouth, snotty, hateful, untruthful and mean. The bullshit police visits have started again. GOD...there doesn't seem to be a place to start because there is so much! I'm frustrated! How does a grown ass woman act like this? How does she justify what she does?

Spring break is OOOOVVVVEEEERRRRR!!!!!

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Submitted by mylife7 on Fri, 04/02/2010 - 5:03pm

That's it! The title says it all. Oh happy happy day. This was actually the first week back to school...and it was one of the happiest weeks ever! I love my children. All of them. Step and bio alike, however, an entire week mostly cooped inside with all of them being up...my...ass(I don't remember any of them being names "Fleets") fighting with each other (ss6 & bs10) and never missing a chance (bd 12) to remind me how "totally unfair" I am because I have not figured out how to poop money at will....hey so if any of you know how that works, hook a chick up lol.

Pinch me please

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Submitted by mylife7 on Sun, 03/21/2010 - 12:42am

Some one pinch me please! So after almost a week of the "please kill me because I'm pretty sure I've been hit by a bus and am still under it" bug, (managed to get the strength to croak to the kids fighting at the end of my bed "I am not the only parent in this house" a few times and gulp some water spilling half of it on the bed along with my sweat in the process...oh well...guess I'll move to his side har har), HOWEVER! My ss6 LOVED me the past few days!

Start at the top right?

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Submitted by mylife7 on Sat, 03/13/2010 - 3:27am

I find myself wondering more and more why the hell I have to be the strong one? The understanding, patient, stern, loving, accommodating, calm, etc, etce-te-flippin-ra! I don't even know how to describe what happened tonight. I suppose I should start with what's on my mind right now. Bio daughter18. We have always had a very special relationship. I don't play favotites, she is just really easy to be around.

I was a bit gun shy...

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Submitted by mylife7 on Thu, 03/11/2010 - 1:59am

When I first tried to reach out to other SMs online I was horrified with what I found. The sites were overrun by bitter BMs who had nothing kind to say about Bd or Sms. Wicked jealousy and lack of responsibility to the situation they had a part in from what I read. This is the first site I have encountered that is real...like really real. I know it's silly, but I felt joy as I read the raw words complete with cursing instead of the "golly gee" and "gawldarn" I had come accrossed before, well unless the BM was talking about a SM. Then we are always the bitch.