So I havent been on here for awhile because things have been going better and I thought I was going to end the year on a happy note but no such luck. Instead I've been sitting at my desk crying for over an hour looking at F'ing artifical Xmas trees.

Quick recap: I bust my ass every year making our home as beautiful as I can for the holidays. I decorate every room. Even SD19's room even though unti Xmas eve she hadnt slept over here since July 9th. (She comes for dinner and leaves)