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Need someone to clue me in on the missing members. Where is everyone???

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I've missed A LOT. I've been away for a few weeks. Could someone briefly explain what happened?! I know there was some angry/argumentative posting going on but that's nothing new. Then the site went down for updates and maintenance? Now there are posters missing!?!

BitchBitchBarbie? MiddleMom? StepAside? BMJen? OneHappyGirl? Selkie?

I'm so lost..where is everyone!?

Also, hello to all the new members Smile

I'm afraid of BM.

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I'm sitting here, crying about having to deal with another woman saying things to my husband that should not be said. A few of the tears that fall carry a very nasty truth. I'm afraid of BM.

This isn't the first time I'm doing this, and certainly it won't be the last, and I don't know what my breaking point is, but I feel it getting closer and closer. I'm exhausted. I feel ridiculed and small. The boy I like is being pestered by another girl at the playground and I can't do anything about it.

UPDATE: I just lost. I really thought it was all behind us but DH is saying things to BM that make it clear it's not.

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I read BM's messages to DH sometimes. She'd say things like she misses him. He has a family with her.

I made it clear that shit has to stop. He said, after much hesitation, that it has. I haven't snooped. Haven't checked his phone. Stopped caring.

Today, in the heat of an argument, I checked his phone.

No outgoing messages BUT a message from BM:

"I know. I miss you too."

I can't believe this. I don't know how to rationalize.

A bit OT but I think I'll take BM's approach to loving my man.

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I'm so desperate to get my thoughts out that I can't help myself from posting here because I know so many of you will at least understand where I'm coming from. I vowed not to post again, not so much because of privacy, but because I don't want DH coming around to cause drama, but I feel so weak right now.

The risks of sticking around?

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Hello All! I've been reading the posts on this site for a few days now and I wanted to share my story with you and ask for your opinions. It shadows the stories of some members like DC Girl and soon2bstep, so it's nothing new and the advice you've given them applies to me, as well. Yet there is a teeny tiny spark of hope in my mind that maybe my situation is different...maybe?