Counseling isn't going as well as I wanted it to. The counselor hasn't come out and said dh was right to stay with ss she just wants me to imagine leaving my dd in a hurricane with someone I felt couldn't protect her. No one cares that ss is a teenager and could survive on his own if he had to and dd is a toddler. My feelings are still hurt and I feel that I can't depend on dh when I need him the most and I want to focus on that. The therapist has assigned us homework, me to write down all the times dh was there for me and when he wasn't and dh to do the same.

Reading your responses gave me the courage to sit down and tell dh exactly what I was feeling last night. He said that his kids come first and that he won't always be able to be with dd and I when ss needs him. He said in an emergency bm isn't going to make good decisions so he will always go to ss and make sure he is protected and that I should go with him. He said I need to get over bm and quit being jealous and insecure over her and act like an adult and put ss first. I feel lost this morning.

When I got home Friday I was really pi$$ed off and disgusted with dh. I packed up some clothes for dd and myself and loaded up my car. I was getting waters and snacks together when dh got home and I let him have it. He didn't try and defend himself at all he just kept saying I am not leaving my son. WHAT ABOUT OUR 2 YR OLD?? F him. I got my baby and left. I wasn't sure where to go because the path had changed so I called my mom and she told me to head north of Atlanta. By the time I got near Atlanta I was exhausted and dd had a blow out and was screaming.

I was on dhs phone yesterday and decided to read his text messages to ss. Bm is pretending to be ss and telling dh she misses him and loves him so he will say it back but dh thinks it's to ss. I believe it's bm and not ss because has fat fingers and half of his texts are misspelled and the other half are bm. Those are the I love you and I miss you ones. How sad and pathetic is that.