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quiet but alone

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yesterday the boys had a doctors appiontment for their meds, i choose not to go this time. i always feel like we are being judged or defending our selves, expecially me. because i wont kiss adem's 8 butt. they tell me how i should be tolerant and sweet to this boy because he has issues with women because of his psyco mother, and he has difficulty showing love. i am never mean to him, but i cant bring my self to accepting that the boy cant be nice or even not mean will do!! i can see that he is not ready to be all lovey dovey with me, because his mom hurt him so bad.

will it ever get better?

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will it ever get better? why do i stay? i am always alone, i feel like i am an unwanted guest at my own home. my step son came to me last night and asked to speak to me. he was very polite about which is highly unusual considering i dont think i have heard him be polite to me in at least a year. he is always yelling at me and has more additude than i can handle. any way he cae to me and asked politely if he could talk to me. wow i thought what is this about? well he stayed polite the entire talk, and spoke very seriously, BUT he came to talk about and explain that he HATES me!!!