Hello Everyone,
Lets first start by saying I post and I post and I give you all the heartfelt truth because your advice wasn't going to help if I didn't start off with honesty and with ONE rebuttal I am a stalker and an a**hole?? Sleeping, sleeping is why I got quiet, sleeping. I work nights remember?
Lets first start in early July, I believe that is when I first started posting here to get advice from you women as to how I could fix my current situation. Again, I never had any reason to skew a side because:

I am saying goodbye to you all, to my SO, and to the two boys that once called me dad. I am letting go of a lot. Most of all, I am letting go of my best friend. I say, 'If you love someone let them go, if they come back they are yours' , type mentality I have now. I want to see her act, her struggle, her TRY!! With her or without her I will be fine, I just preferred with her as the path I wanted to travel.

I love you Heather, I always will, forever

I have given her space even though it has proven to excite my ulcer, haha!! My SO is due back from Tybee tomorrow and I am getting the feeling that she is really missing me, ( ie. I cut off ties, conversation, and general longing for her). My SO has stated that she is curious as to how I have been and doesn't want 'cats and dogs' arguing in the future. It really has never escalated to 'cats and dogs' in my opinion but, I am keeping it light. I sincerely hope that she has taken this time to realize just what she wants and where I play into that if at all.

....Borderline Personality Disorder, the more I think we both are afflicted with it. Could this be that same feeling I get whenever I look up a bump online or in a medical journal and come to the conclusion I have Cancer or AIDS?? (that always happens, haha)

Enter symptoms,(types: bump on right arm) = Many bumps on right arms are found to be, (enter large latin word), and the precursor to AIDS.

OK, Please tell me you get my drift and that I am not the only one that is diagnosed with terrible diseases when I search my symptoms.

Kevin The Man