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I think I'm getting depressed...

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Submitted by jojo68 on Fri, 02/18/2011 - 11:11am

Things I used to love to do...I don't really care if I do them or not. I don't look forward to anything anymore. I hate the weekends because there is always so much chaos with having anywhere from 4-7 kids there (FSD friends are always there and a lot of times her 1/2 brother and sister). I'm sitting here at work almost in tears just thinking about the weekend. It is almost planting season (I work for a farm machinery business and this is our busy time) so I think I'll just work all day Saturday and 1/2 day Sunday to escape if I can. OMG...I really need a break from having all those kids there evey weekend. I don't mind having friends over sometimes but I really need a break and I feel helpless because no one thinks anything of it having all those kids there all the time.

FDH and I never spend any time together. Never just the two of us...I hardly ever see him and when he gets a day off it is spent catering to his daughter and I am just the third wheel tagging along and I would just rather not be there.

Anyone have any suggestions to get me out of my funk...

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Submitted by young_step_mom on Fri, 02/18/2011 - 11:13am

oh, honey I am sorry but I feel your pain. Try to tell FDH how you feel and see if you guys can't take at least one night a week to just spend that time alone w each other? I'm sorry you are in a funk, but we are here for you! *hugs*

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Submitted by Butterflykisses... on Fri, 02/18/2011 - 11:26am

I'm so sorry, JoJo. I know how you feel. It will take me some time to recover and become the woman that I was, two years ago. You'll be able to find her in 6 months running through the trees and playing by the open sea. I'm just a big kid at heart. (I think?)

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Submitted by stepmom31 on Fri, 02/18/2011 - 12:00pm

Sorry to hear you're feeling this way.

I don't think working all weekend is the answer though!!! All those things you used to love to do, just pick one and do it! You may not feel up to it now, but actually getting back into it might just be the reviver you need. Or it would be great if you could call up a friend and just get out of that crazy, packed house and do something you enjoy!!

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Submitted by jojo68 on Fri, 02/18/2011 - 12:11pm

I'm thinking of taking bioson to bookstore and then lunch on Sunday. Maybe we'll go the mall too...just take the day as it goes. Thanks ladies...you guys are the best Smile

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Submitted by jojo68 on Fri, 02/18/2011 - 1:01pm

Wow helpmeee you should be a counselor or something because you have me and my situation pegged. As far as BF and I going out as a couple...I have given up on that. Even on the rare instance that we do get to go somewhere just the two of us....His daughter is texting him incessantly trying to make him feel guilty that she did not get to come along so what is the point of going out alone. I really love this man...he is the most kind, generous, and hard working person I have ever known. He has this weird almost obsession with daughter that I absolutely just don't understand. I honestly believe that if something were to happen to her..he would not be able to go on.