I don't know why I have been feeling this way lately but here it goes. I'm not in stephell anymore. That ended for me nine months ago. Lately I've been feeling down. My ex made it seem like I hated his kids because I never really got involved in any parenting for them because well, they were his kids. He had said more times than not that the mom was crazy, so that created many of the boundaries I put up for myself and his kids. I didn't want any problems. At first when we had started dating, I was open to being there and helping him out.