Today I found that DH might actually have a facebook account...It ticks me off to no end because he knows EVERYTHING I have and goes into it, etc...I don't mind...I have NOTHING to hide...on the other hand he's been acting like an ahole lately, especially today...and I keep thinking the whole "you are a loser F U" text from truant did not just come out of nowhere...well, I believe he actually DOES have a facebook acct...

I am starting to think that he has talked to truant and not told me a darn thing...You know, it's his FREAKING DAUGHTER but WTH is it ok to pull me into his crap when HE NEEDED MONEY to support that little witch, but now that he doesn't it's not my freaking business? I think he is full of it...I am trying to remain calm but I am really getting ticked off about this whole mess...I feel I have put up with all the crap and now that she is preggo he is treating me like crap...coming up with all kinds of "faults" in me that of course, HE NEVER MENTIONED when he needed MY FREAKING MONEY TO SUPPORT THAT LITTLE TRUANT WITCH! I am sick of this...I am trying to remain calm for my son, but I am really getting sick of this BS...

BTW, found out that truant is actually still with the baby daddy...they went to Babies R US...ain't that FREAKING GREAT? We go three weeks with 300USD or less in our account and she's freaking shooping for her new baby...and we're aholes for not giving her money...I wish I had left years ago...

I am starting to hate him...I never thought I would feel this way, but tonight we had it out and I was just disgusted with what came out of his freaking mouth...funny, while I made more money, I was great, while I spent my freaking retirement, I was great...now that I have not a dime left and his piece of garbage truant kid is prego he claims "I don't want him to be happy in HIS JOB!" I have moved twice for HIS JOB, I got him that freaking job! I paid his school to get that freaking JOB!

Today is not a good day...I can say though, that with all the crap he has put me through, I will be the nastiest freaking BM that ever existed! He WILL pay me back all the over 120K I have spent out of MY MONEY to keep a roof over our head and pay his freaking cs!

Sorry, but it is almost 4AM and I am ready to lose it...I truly feel like going into bed and beatiing the crap out of him right now!