sd 7 is on zoloft and an adhd pill. I thought it was weird that she is on zoloft. bm said its for her anxiety. I know shes not here much, and I do see the adhd, but her anxiety...?? i dont know, Im not a doctor or anything but it just seems weird that shes on it. and we had her for 10 days at christmas and she didnt seem anxious at all, and bm did have her on it at that time too, but only gave 3 of them in her pill bottle. Sometimes from when she talks about sd's meds it seems like she wants her to be medicated so she doesnt have to deal with her as much. sd atleast once or twice every time she is here says "mommy doesnt do anything with me" and yesterday when she first got here, she said "at *bm's name*'s house... this and this and this happened" i dont know. dont know what will happen if H tries to go for custody of sd. I know I love her, but alot of the time I feel like I dont like my space being invaded by a child, more or less in a small cramped space as it is.
and a sort of update about the divorce talk. I told him how I felt. He is against the idea and really wants us to wait before making any rash decisions when school is out and he quits one of his 2 jobs. which I can see, because our schedules are so hectic we dont really have enough time to spend together to see if there is anything still there. (atleast on my end, I know H still loves me and doesnt want a divorce) and I still feel guilty for not trying 100% before calling it quits. So i dont know what will happen anymore.