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I just drank my first full bottle of wine

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Submitted by Gwynnafaye on Tue, 03/26/2019 - 6:50pm

Oh hell.  I know this is not the forum or place for this.  It's not step related at all.  I just drank my first full bottle of wine on a fucking work night!!  That's not healthy.  I lost my son September 28, 2018.  He took his own life.  WTF/WTH???  Yeah, I'm drunk.  Yeah, I know it's not healthy, but here I am.  If you didn't know me before, I used to be onehappygirl.  That was a lifetime ago.  My DS used to be Spongebob.  But he's gone now.  Life was too much for him, and here I am trying to survive without him.   I still have Starr (DD now 19) - she is my rock, KittyKat (SD now 18) and S

Ugh!

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Submitted by Gwynnafaye on Thu, 02/15/2018 - 4:59pm

BM bought SD17 a very nice, used Mustang convertible. She's also paying for SD's college education. SS21 worked his ass off to save money for a car. So did DS22, and DD17 is working to save her money for a car. Also, no college paid by SS21's mother, although he wasn't very motivated to go anyway. I feel bad for all of our other kids. We aren't able to fork out that kind of money because if we pay for one, we would have to pay for all. DH has his bios, and I have mine, but we don't and won't play favorites. I don't think SS21 knows yet.