I want to thank everyone for their response and advice. I've done a lot of thinking today and I know nothing is ever gonna change here but I'm ready to make a change one way or another. I'm picking up a copy of the prenup tomorrow to see how it was worded, I don't want my husband to know I'm getting it, our copy is in a safe that I don't have access to, I may try to see a lawyer and see if anything can be changed.