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more proof I need to learn to say no.

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Submitted by blindsided on Fri, 02/19/2010 - 3:34pm

So I am on the Pto b/c I have felt the need to prove myself as a loving and super stepmom since the begining. I have been sick for 2 wks. Which I posted before w/ asthma problems, pneumonia, and other stuff. So today was the first day I tried to leave the house and go do something with my mom. We went and did some shopping for the pto and then we went to lunch. Now I am over weight and have been for a couple yrs now. But I couldnt even walk around the store. I have no energy at all. My body feels numb and I feel lightheaded.

seconds away from a nervous breakdown

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Submitted by blindsided on Wed, 02/17/2010 - 6:28pm

I cant concentrate I cant focus. I have been on medication for over 13 days b.c I am so sick. I have breathing problems. My husband thinks its a joke and only cares that I can not work b/c I am not making money. I went from asthma to pneumonia to now some kind of yeast infection in my mouth due to all the steroids and antibiotics. I asked him this afternoon to go get me something to eat b/c its friday and I cant eat meat. he said no because he was leaving in a half hr and going to get the taxes done.

when is enough, enough?

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Submitted by blindsided on Tue, 02/16/2010 - 9:44pm

I dont really know where to start.... I have 4 yrs of build up frustration and now anger towards my situation and role of raising someone else's child. I went into the role not as SM but as mom. I was asked to fill a hole that was there long before I got there. I have had to deal with mental and emotional harrassment/abuse from my husband's family, all because I was willing to help him raise his child. Because his mom had been there and they got mad at me because my husband moved out and started his own life and she somehow couldnt separate mom/grandma in her mind.