This week was an eye opening for SO. I had my bad packed and was headed out the door after one year of waiting for him to make a difference in his kids lives instead of just accepting what their mother and teachers taught them and leaving it all up to them while he sat back and watches movies with them EOW. He has the laziest attitude towards teaching his kids ANYTHING it finally got sickening enough for me to leave. My last blog explains that he cried and apologized and promised to change. Now I'm in a new predicament. The last 2 days he has done an EXCELLENT job following up on his boys hygiene and messes. Now the problem is I'm still mad because it took him this bloody long to do anything that I think it may just be plain ol' too late. I still don't like his kids. They still make my skin crawl. There was a point 2 years ago when I still didn't mind being around them, but with 2 years of anything I said going unheeded, it's hard for me to now suddenly be the one to be okay with the outcome just because he finally got the picture!!! Now I regret not walking out the door when I had the chance because even though he is finally making an effort (no matter how big or small.... he didn't do ANYTHING before) I think it may all be too late.

Obviously I'll give him a while to change now that he's making the effort before I make any decisions about leaving.... I just wish it didn't take him 2 years.... cause now I have 2 years worth of anger and resentment built up.

Can't seem to win!!!