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I wish I had a time machine.

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Submitted by barkingdog828 on Thu, 09/12/2024 - 4:36pm

Because I'm tired of being a 'stepmother'.

I hate it, actually.

I hate the disrespect, the attitude.
I hate the apathy.

I hate the wasted time, emotions, sanity.

All the best years of my life are over and wasted on a brat that could care less if I was alive or dead.

 

Let me reiterate, *ahem* I DETEST BEING A STEPMOTHER.

Step child comes around and it makes me catch my breath.
Like a medium-sized black hole sucking the joy out of life.
A bottomless pit of anger and resentment. 
My heart has become an abyss.

I’m on the precipice of something..

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Submitted by barkingdog828 on Fri, 05/20/2022 - 9:49am

But I just don't know what. 
 

I have been on autopilot for years. I just realized it. I haven't lived. I've just floated from one day to the next. My life is like a  bad sitcom that isn't funny but rather just a really uncomfortable train wreck you can't look away from. 

I have 100% disengaged from my SD. Unless it is a basic need like food or giving her her meds, I don't acknowledge her existence. I have also come to the realization that she hates me.. which is fine because the feeling is mutual.