I really just need some people to talk to. I have no one that I can vent to. It's so hard. I used to say that I never wanted to date anyone with kids because I don't like kids. When I met my now husband, I told him that I didn't want to date him because of his kids. But he kept talking to me, and talking to me and eventually I fell for him. I knew the kids were a packaged deal and honestly I thought that I could handle it better than I am. I really don't like being a step mom. I dont even want kids of my own let alone someone elses.