Why I don't leave him if I'm so miserable.
1. I'm too scared.
2. Financially I don't know how we'd manage.
3. I love my dear, precious BSs more than life itself, and would be miserable for them. Divorce and raising them myself, or potentially raising them with a SF would be devastating. They love their dad, and he is a very good father. I know from experience that it is just about impossible to love someone else's children like they're your own if I were to find someone else.

SD13 LOVES the violent video games that she gets to play at BM's. Funny, they can't afford a phone, cable, a bed or Christmas presents, but SF can buy all the latest Call of Duty/HALO/World of Warcraft trash. Anyone who doesn't believe that those types of games wear off on kid's behavior needs to witness my SD after a week at her BM's. She pokes me, BS7 and BS2 in the arm or back constantly and then laughs. The other day she jabbed me with a little stick and loudly snickered, "Shanked!". She swings her fist and lands it about an inch in front of my (and little brothers') faces.

My kids, SD13, BS7, and BS2, receive quite a bit of cash from my DH's family. Every holiday they get $5-$10. And I mean every holiday. Halloween, thanksgiving, 4th of July, St. Patrick's Day, etc. I make the kids put it in the bank in their savings accounts for college. We pay for anything they need or do, and they get allowance for spending. Anyway, I was going to the bank, planning on depositing money, and asked SD for hers. She said she's just been leaving the money on the counter (very cluttered).

That when SD13 is asked about her family, she claims to have 4 brothers and 1 sister. Two of the siblings are her SF's kids, her SB15 and SS9. Her SB she sees fairly regularly when she visits BM-maybe once or twice a month, but her SS (both of them have different BMs-he has 3 kids, 3 moms)has an intellectual disability, was never legitimized so SF never has never felt the need to be a part of her life, he almost went to jail for not paying CS, SD13 has only met her 2x, and SS9 has lived in TX (we live in GA) for over a year, and SF just found out about it.