Some big changes are coming to our 'family' and I am both nervous and excited about it. SO I just need to vent about my feeling - feel free to comment.

What is changing:
FDH and I are getting married in 7 weeks!
FDH and I want to start trying for a baby in Nov.
SS5 and SS7 are going to have to share a room (to make room for the baby).

How I feel about those changes:

The Wedding: I am so excited! I love FDh and I know that I want to be with him forever. But nervous, like any bride, that something won't go as planned. Also kind of waiting for Bm to throw some wrench in the system of have a melt down. There isn't a lot she can do accept annoy me.

The Baby: After dealing with skids I realized that I wanted to be a 'real' mom and not have to deal with a crazy BM. But I do worry what trash BM is going to feed the sKids to make them hate their new brother or sister. I know that baby siblings can and usually are annoying to their older siblings at some point in their lives. currently SS7 has said he wants a baby sister or brother but wanting and getting are 2 different things.

The Bedrooms: Actually going to start on this next week. We are going to paint the room that is currently SS5's and move BOTH boys into that room now so they get used to it and turn the room at is SS7's into a 'play room' until we conceive at which point it will become the baby's room. The play room then will all get moved down into the basement - there is already one there but it doesn't have as many toys. The other reason for the boys to share a room is they are having issues sleeping (because BM is retarded and leaves the TV on all night at her house) So we are going to create a room that is just for sleeping - no tv and very few toys. We ran this by SS7's therapist and she said it was a great idea. I am nervous about it though because SS7 really likes having his own room/space. But until Baby comes there will be 2 toy rooms so it's not like he HAS to be around SS5 if he doesn't want to.

I think - that I think too much!