It is pretty much. I had replied to a post here about coming to the realization that you just don't care anymore and how freeing it is. That is pretty much where I am.

I dont have to have a relationship with my SD...I don't have one with her brother and I am perfectly content and happy with that...so why should I with her? I think that boiled down to a girl thing, and her own mom being absent. But still, none of that is my fault, and if she has done nothing but be disrespectful, manipulative, and a liar, then I don't have to deal with her. I wouldn't with anyone else, so she doesn't get to be an exception. It is really hard to like people like that in the first place.

I have just been doing my own thing...finding my peace. I still have to call my Dr. will do that today...have to now...can't keep putting it off....not just for my depression, but now I apparently have vein issues in my left leg. It has been hurting and twitching and just feeling weird, so that will prompt me to call my Dr today and set up an appt for that and to address my depression. Winter is not helping....I can't stand how everything is dead, dreary, and not bright and sun shiny! I want spring!

SD has been alright. No major issues. So that is a good thing. I should knock on wood, or something cuz just me saying that will jinx it all and I will end up with a weekend of shit again lol. But, got to remember...whatever it is will not be my problem. I have been spending lots of time with my little ones, and they appreciate it It feels good. My oldest son is having girl troubles but doesn't feel comfortable talking about it yet...just wants extra hugs. Oh its so hard when they feel bad and you want to just fix it for them and you can't.

Anyway...things are okay here at the moment.