Things have been great with SS this summer minus the cops incident in early summer. Things we great until this past weekend and now I am dreading H going to pick him up and worrying that I will not be able to lay down my feelings of hurt and anger we he gets there so that I can welcome him.

I posted that we are going to court with BM to get 50/50 time. She was served on July 15th. SS knew what was going on and what we were trying to do. He was all on board with us and was even telling his mom that he wanted to do that so he could be with everybody. Well Saturday ss gets up and tells us he has something to tell us but make us promise we will not get mad at him. So we tell him to tell us we will not be mad and he says that he has changed his mind about seeing us more and that it should just stay the way it is now. We why he changed his mind and he said I just felt like changing it and we asked again what had happened and he said well my mom asked me when I would ever get to see my brother and I need to be with my brother so I can protect him. We ask protect him from what and he says you know when they fight and jerk in back and forth I have to be with him so they will no hurt him. We asked had he told his mom he changed his mom and he said yes so we asked what she said and he said she was so happy and not mad at me anymore. So we explain that he is 7 and it is not his job to protect his 18mth old brother from his mom and dad. then we tell him that it does not matter what his mom wants, what his dad wants, or what he wants but that the judge will be the one to decided. Then he said that his mom said it did not matter what the judge said that nothing was going to change.

So the rest of the weekend SS had that selfish smart attitude that his mom has everyday. We were trying to talk to him about his birthday party next month. We were going to rent one of those inflatables for his party. Well the whole time we are trying to talk to him about it he is like my mom this and my mom that and my party at my mom's. Well BM has not had a party for ss since he was 3! Then he was just plain smart butt and pushing the limits all weekend. Now normally he is not like that with us. he is very affectionate, happy, and obedient to what we ask him to do. Well not this weekend. I was actually ready to see H leave and take him to his mom's. Usually I am real sad to see him go.

Friday when H picked him up BM was mouthy and trying to be all that and told he she wished she could be a fly on the wall when he gets the papers she is sending and SS was walking on his bottom lip. Well when H took SS back on Sunday he took the school clothes we bought for SS with him for school to start tomorrow. It was 5 pair shorts, 4 shirts, 1 pair jeans, and socks. Now mind you 2 weeks ago we took ss to buy all his school supplies as well and already sent them. Well when ss set them at his mom's feet she gave H this go to hell look at told him she needed to speak to him outside. When she got out there she told him that he could take the (insert seris of foul words) clothes back if all he was going to do was go to court and say he bought all that stuff. H tells her that she is being selfish to not let ss have the stuff just cause he bought it. She started mouthing that she had money to buy all the things he needed and to look around at their fine house, his fine room and their fine car. She told H againt to take them and he said fine if the clothes are not good enough then go in there and get the backpack and all cause it is not good enough either. So BM marches in the house and comes back through with the pack. SS says no mom and tries to get the pack from her and she yanks it out of his hands and get starts to cry. She comes back out and H tells her again that she is so selfish to take from her son because of how she feels about his dad. Other crap was said back and forth and H finally thew the clothes back in the door past her and said what is so wrong with me wanting more time with Lakota what? She got in his face and yelled IT AINT GONNA HAPPEN. H said well we will let the judge decide that and walked off.

So now my stomach is tore up H just called and said he was on his way to get SS and I am tore up about how BM will act and how SS is going to be and if I can lay down how upset I still am about how he acted this past weekend. Sorry so long. Thanks for reading.