Hey everyone. I'm new to this forum but I'm looking for all of you with experience in this area's expert advice. I've been seeing my boyfriend for a year and a half now (he's 30 and I'm 28) and the first six months of this relationship was abroad so while I knew he had children, it never really affected our relationship. He has a 10 year old son with a woman who appears to be fine (from the idle chitchat I've had with her) and she has another child in her current relationship. Her and my boyfriend have not been together for 8 years and although they used to have a turbulent relationship as teenagers, they seem to get on now for the sake of the child. He is a lovely child and my boyfriend dotes on him. While we have a pleasant relationship, things don't always feel right with the child, he's never said he loves me and I feel jealous of his and his dad's relationship although this is definitely hidden and is not a factor in our relationship. He also has a 3 year old daughter from a previous relationship but this relationship was bad and while he pays child support, he does not see her. He says that he hates the mother and because he was uninvolved in the pregnancy unlike his son, it doesn't bother him. She emails him to say thanks every month and he always tries to give her extra money so I know he is not a bad man. He is the most amazing boyfriend I have ever had and he makes me feel very loved. However, I worry about our future in that I am so jealous about his children, I worry does he still have feelings for these women (especially the mother of his daughter as she left him heartbroken when she broke up with him) and whether we will ever be able to have our own children together because of the finiancial implications of already having two children. I'm so confused because he really is a great man so if anybody has any advice for me on the matter, I would be extremely grateful as it's beginning to make me feel like I'm a bad person for feeling like this!!! Cheers