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Well, if you read my previous blog about my close friend going to meet up with BM, friend confirmed today that she is going. She claims she just wants to know what BM could possibly have to say to her after 9 years. Sorry but why do you care about someone who treated you awful 9 years later enough to basically stab a current friend in the back? 

I feel like I've ruined my life

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I'm going to preface this by saying that this is a vent to get everything off my chest at once because I feel like I'm stuck in a very negative place right now and if anyone has encouraging positive feedback I welcome it. And to the trolls on here - plan on getting deleted without the comment even fully read. Dealing with the trolls on here has actually helped me care alot less about judgmental people in general.

I am never going to fawn over your kid with you get it through your thick skull

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When is DH going to give up on trying to get me to think his kid is adorable? He knows exactly how I feel about her and why and he says he understands. Shes bullied my other kids, physically hurt them, slammed doors on us, etc for years. 

Is she really that bad?

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I'm not around kids all that often, especially ones my ODS and SDs age (8/9). So sometimes I start to question if SD is really that bad or if shes maybe a little more normal for her age than I think and theres another reason she drives me up the wall.

But then I'll meet other kids for whatever reason that instantly come across as nice, likeable kids and I'm shocked at the difference and think "yep, it really just is her personality that I find difficult."

There may be hope, steptalkers

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I joined this site nearly a year ago now after being ready to lose my mind after dealing with SD all summer. It was slow going - but there finally seems to be some lasting improvement now. And shockingly something seems to have clicked for DH in regards to the guilt parenting (knock on wood). I was dreading SD being here this week because I was afraid that DH wasnt going to follow through in the talks we had had about our issues and guilt parenting, acting like SD was the center of the family and catering to her at the rest of our expenses.

Ot - toxic mothers

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I've seen this as a topic brought up in a few posts lately, about toxic mothers/mother in laws being a common theme for people on this board. I've wondered alot as a teen/adult if I have one myself, but since it's my own mother and the only one I've ever had it's hard to judge myself. I can clearly see that MIL is since I'm looking at it from the outside. I suspect my own mother is somewhat toxic also and have a few people say things that indicate they thought the same also.

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