I don't know how I got to this place but I am reaching the point where I am upset all the time about everything.

SO had his last court ordered mediation this morning and apparently it "went well"...he got her to agree to overnights in a row in front of this guy and apparently thats good for when we go back to court. But then he says that he doesnt want to go back to court right now and wait it out...

wait it out for what? what the fuck for??!! BM isn't going to magically become a sane rational human being in a year, NOW is the perfect time to go and try for custody mod.

I just keep thinking that I knew what I was getting into, and I don't want to go anywhere, I chose this life with him knowing how hard it was going to be.

But Im sick of hearing about how SO ruined HER life by knocking her up....no SHE ruined his life. She ruined his life, she ruined her daughters life and she ruined mine and any future spouse he may or may not haves lives. Shes ruined our future childrens lives.

Im not naive anymore after reading all of your stories, Im just devestated because although I am trying to prepare myself mentally for the hell to come, all he wants to do is "wait it out"...no. I cant even type right now im so upset, ttyl.