As I said before I am raising my 2 ss's who are 21 and 17. The 21 year old ss, left college to enroll into the Marines, that was 6 months ago. The Marines are holding up the process of going to boot camp, because he has a wart on his foot. So, not only do I have a 17 year old ss who will not talk to me at all period. The 21 year old ss also, will not talk to me.
I have tried over and over to talk to my husband - all I get is it's your imagination, that's not true or critized for being who I am. My husband loves to letuce and point out my faults, he has no faults what so ever. What I truly love is both of these ss's keep running to him for money and he gives them everything they want, we can't afford it and you know what happens when I say something about it - it's no big deal.
I am sick and tired of being treated like a piece of dirt, just kick me around a few times.

The other thing that really pises me off is I work 9 hours a day, plus go to school part-time. So my day starts at 4:30 am and goes until 11:30 pm (husband works 3rd shift 7:00pm to 7 am for the next few months). I get up clean up the house, get ready for work and am out the door by 7:00. Work all day, home a little after 5:00 pm, make dinner and get my husbands lunch ready for his shift, than I either attend classes or do homework, clean the kitchen and the mess the ss's have made. Go to bed and start over again! This does not include any errands or washing clothes during the week. The ss's only the youngest works part-time, which apparently gives him the right not to clean up after himself. It is eating at me that I can't say anything - his kids rule this house and I am the live in maid. Truly my husband wonders why I am so tired all the time. These ss's are not required to unload or load the dishwasher, take the trash out or clean their own bedrooms. Everything is provided for them!

I keep thinking over and over that I should just end this madness. As I can see where this is going - and it isn't pretty. I can't even talk to my husband anymore - because I hurt so bad most days and am angry.

Sorry for the long blog and thank you for letting me vend!