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Let it go?

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About 2 years ago, before I moved into Stephell, I left money in an envelope with my name to see if any would disappear. DH(boyfriend at the time) had an organizer in the kitchen where he put bills, schedules and junk to be organized. I stuck the envelope in there and I left it open just enough to see a small amt of green$$. The reason it had my name is it was the money I use for the kids I nanny. It was a $20, a $5 and a few singles + gift cards my employer leaves with me to take the kids out.

Love my zumba/yoga studio

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I pulled up from work at 6pm and saw all the cars out front meaning all 4 skids were home for dinner. Now I dont feel comfortable walking in my own home. I sat in the car for 15 mins on the phone with my son to hope dinner would be over and then took a deep breath and walked in. Everyone was at the table. I said hi. No one but DH responded. I went upstairs, hungry but uncomfortable to go downstairs. I changed into workout clothes, grabbed a banana and told DH I was going to work out, said a group goodbye...again only a response from DH. Who is that fucking rude?

Stephell

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I was responding on someone else's thread today and mentioned that even when the skids are gone for the weekend their presence still looms over my head. I have constant reminders that my 48 hrs of skidless time is almost up and it will be weeks before they leave again.

Here is an example of how they never go away. I hear DH on the phone talking to SS11.. Heyyyyy buddyyyy.......how much is that?.......ya we can look at it........blah blah blah.......bye buddy love you.

Friday night!!

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Spent Friday night at a restaurant by myself with my headphones and an audible book because it is better than being here at home with DuH. He had a slow week at work and took the day off today unexpectedly. By 9am we were arguing. By 11 screaming and by 5pm I left to go to target amd have dinner alone

Last day of summer

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Last day of summer and the skids go back to school tomorrow. Yay for school. We can have some sort of schedule and no more child care $$$.

Last May I literally dreaded the day that summer came. Im a nanny to 2 spoiled rich kids 14 & 12 years old, as well as a step mom to the skids SD17, SS12 & SS11. I dreaded the summer like I was going to the electric chair! I was going to be working 20 hrs a week with the spoiled kids and watching the snotty skids on the other days.

I dont get it

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I dont understand the skids...ok I do, I understand that no matter how badly you are treated, neglected and /or abused by your parents, they are still your parents and you just want to be loved by that parent but i dont understand why that is in most cases even in to adulthood.

Explain the logic ??

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We set up a smart tv with cable box and a couple of couches in the basement for the boys, SS10 & SS12, so they can watch porn & other inappropriate things without anyone bothering them since the internet/screen rules & bedtime rules we(me) put into place last year are all have gone out the window.

Funny

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The skids have been out of school for 4 weeks. BM took them for the weekend so that makes it 4 days in June she had time to take the kids or couldnt come up with an excuse. 4 days of 30 and she pays $50/wk for 4 kids(one in college)

Funny how rain(weather) is an excuse to not pick up the kids but we had quite a monsoon today and she managed to not only get the skkds home but git them home early. Funny isnt it?

Father's day

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My bio son 22 lost his dad in Nov 2014. I married DH just over a year ago but we've known each other for almost 4 years. My bio called DH on fathers day just to chat. DH is a great step father but such a crap father. Im glad he has been good to my kids and they appreciate him but I wish he'd get it together with his own hot mess of 4 children he has spawned. My kids are both adults so they never lived with us and they were in college when we started dating so there was never any drama.

My irresponsible husband

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As i sit here with my son, 24, who has a concussion from a car accident, i think about how irresponsible my husband is....just shitty, irresponsible parenting. My bio son has missed 3 weeks of work and will be out next week too, maybe more. He has a nuerologist appt on the 17th and starts physical therapy on the 26th. My son is a responsible driver & was wearing a seatbelt. He is miserable and doesn't deserve this. I drive 3.5 hrs to spend time with him several times a week so he doesnt have to sit in the dark by himself for 8 hrs while his gf works.

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